lonley !

Strange & thrilling feeling,

                                           so deep inside.

I feel…

            empty,

                        yet so full

                                  full of things

                                            things that are in fact

                                                                              the essence of nothing.

Can’t think

                  clearly,

Can’t see,

          hear,

          speak,

   only sense.              

I want to express,

   want to explode,

                              but everything I want to throw out,

                                                     becomes an implosion.

So much to do,

so much to achieve,

                               but this bitter,

                                                     scorching,

                                                                       crawling,

                                                                                      scratching

                                                                                                          hollowness

claws at my heart,

fills my chest…

Like a warlord surrounding a stronghold.

I want to cry,

  want to scream,

but it just doesn’t

                                   go

                                               away.